Read Poem: the purity, by Alex Dumitru

Me: They don’t teach you

That you might become two

When love happens

That you might love

But you will also want

Your lover out

Out of your life!

They did not tell you

How cruel it is to lose the lover

And to want love back

But away with the lover.

They did not teach us

How to fight with

Wanting the lover back

But also away, far away!

They did not and they will not.

I did hear songs about it,

Seen movies about it

Never understood it

Like I was watching

A modern painting that

The more I look at, the

More I understand less

Or just accept it as it is

But never paid attention to

And here I am fighting for

Whats left of my dignity

Life and soul! An emptiness.

The lover: always kisses

With his eyes wide open,

Silent in his moves

Strong on reactions

Wanting it all! Taking it all

Looking at his pray

Like its a last meal

Enjoying it all leaving

Nothing for a future love!

Always offering love

Like using his ultimate.

But loving at all.

Always sure that love

Is seen as pure.

Always being sure

The love is taken

Hugged with power…

Always messing arround with

And act or a decision

Never looking after own

Always planing in full

Step by step the moment

When you will think

Its your fault and you

Will forever think so!

Always keeping sticked to

The relationship until it knows

The job is done – suffering you will.

Knowing that no matter what

There is always a chance

For you to accept the misery

And the toxicity and the pain.

They: they don’t prevent us

Never keep us safe from

Always letting us fall

In the same trap – love!

Us: fighting for getting back

Knowing that is wrong

Never giving up

Always caring to each other

Forever wanting the feelings

The special, that dance

In the midle of the Universe.

That we will always know

That is wrong bur never

Fighting for what is right

To keep the love alive

In a healthy way! A powerful

Love! Strong! Never torn

A love entirely made of truth

And life! Kindness and affection

The one we only know

To give to each other.

That special hug! And kiss!

That special thought and care that says

“I am here and forever will”

That please accept it all

And put it in your heart

That forgiveness and blessing

Of preying at night for you

While you sleep. A sweet sleep

Or a hug in the summer

When it rains and full of noises

In the sky. That hug. That

Sincerity and clarity that makes

One accept it all, wanting all

That “I will keep you,

And will never get tired

To fight for you, to care for you”

That when you get upset

All comes back to light.

The light: we are both depressed

In need of help and crying

For that real help that power

To tell us “you are not alone”

And you will be alright.

That feeling of be safe

And truly protected

Of unwanted forces or

Unwanted suffering. Unwanted.

Anything to put us apart then…

We become our enemies without

Knowing that somewhere deep inside

A decision was made for us

And that we will keep in our hearts

What is wrong or bad about

The other. The lover, the hater

The lier and the one to wanting

All that is bad for us. Never to

Look at anything but what

Makes us suffer. What makes us

Cry or in pain or screaming

“what do you want from me?”

Untill the darkness comes along

Darkness: we are both alone

And we want to become friends

But also keep each other away

As far as possible and then the thought

“can it be possible? That love”

We did not know love. I did not.

Did you? Did you know

What you were playing with?

Did you know what you were doing?

Did you know I will always want you back?

Did you lie and used me? Did you?

Did you force yourself into me?

How could I accept something

I knew I will never accept.

How could you let me open?

How could you let me do it?

Why don’t you fight back for me now?

Why don’t you do what is right.

Its all out. Will always be.

I will pretend strong looking

Like I don t want you back.

All because of you. But I will

Accept it all. As I did. I will

Fight for you deep inside me

Pray for you. Care for you.

I will always always always

Always always love you!

I will. And I will take away

Anything else! And I will become

A man standing straight

Looking in people’s eyes

Keeping you in my heart

Somehow not taking you

Out of it! Never letting you out

To making sure no matter

What happens to you, no matter

What, you will constantly receive

Love. A source that will never end.

A source that will make me happy

As will make you happy

Without knowing where is it from

Where is the source…

The source: I now know

I will forever feel alone

As a love like that will never

Ever ever live inside me again

And that alone will keep me

A person that can walk

Can travel this Universe

As a free soul, changed

Into something that will no

See end. No see limit.

A way of understanding

And looking and trying

Learning. Accepting!

That can be sure! The purity

Will never die! It will stay there.

It will survive to tell the story

In the darkness, the light and purity

The purity…