I envy you.
You who has lost someone so late in life
Your hair is greying and your body is slowing
The agony is all the same
Time is our desperate lover
Always wanting more
Clawing at our deepest parts
Never giving up
When it’s gone we’re left with longing
An hourglass sitting on my desk
Never out of sight
Always there
A reminder of meaningless time
Empty
My hair is still technicolor
My body hasn’t given up yet
I am in perfect condition
But still I am broken
The years keep passing
The pain never lessens
10 years for you
50 years for me
I envy you.
You’ll find them in the blink of an eye
And I’ll be here waiting
Counting every second
Watching life go by
One day I won’t envy you
One day I’ll be whole
Time will leave me alone.