FREE VERSE Poem: Twisted, by Mariah Holmes

I am dissolved, not dismembered
I am a mind, my soul an ember
My heart dies when I miss you
My soul holds you like glue

I never really understood love
So I bought a book hoping to find something to be a part of
I failed. I still don’t understand it
When it comes to love I’ll always be a misfit

When it comes to you..
I haven’t got a clue
You were so loving, caring and kind
But when you left me I realized love was blind

A gaping hole was left in my chest
It wasn’t until you left.. That I realized I was obsessed
Dangerously so, my mind cracks when you’re not there
My eyes search around for you, daring to stare

When my eyes land on you.
You’ve found someone different,
Replaced me.
Threw everything away like it was nothing

I feel dull, disdain, angry
Like something important ran away
Left me without a second thought
Left me feeling undeserving and useless

Staring at you feels like poison
But I can’t resist
Just one drop for my thirst I can’t quench
Love me again, let me suck in all your toxins
Dissolve my soul like you’ve always wanted.