So, I’ll watch you betray me,
Watch as that dull blade rips my heart out,
Watch fourteen years turn to ashes.
When it’s over,
I’ll gather the fragments again and again,
Trapped in this unending cycle.
There are no more tears left to shed,
And the dull ache I feel,
As I search for missing pieces,
Has become my only companion.
Shrouded in darkness,
I keep falling,
Yearning for a shimmer of hope,
A ray of warmth,
Anything to restore my sanity.
Even if just for a moment,
Let me live in an illusion—
Where the sky isn’t falling,
Where these walls aren’t upside down,
And where I don’t need a thousand masks to face each day.
At least I still have the freedom to dream,
But terror grips me
Each time I open my eyes,
And I’m back in the same dreadful reality,
With a forced smile plastered on my face.