I bury myself in work, suffering, just to prove myself
I look in the mirror and change to be like her
I want the approval
I want the appreciation
I want to stop going unnoticed
When she is around the sun shines brighter
As for me it merely dims in their eyes
All the little girls say they want to be just like her
But they never notice me
Nobody thinks about those behind her
Spending hours, days, weeks, and years trying to earn just a sliver of their satisfaction
All they think about is the ‘perfect’ one
Sometimes I daydream about living up to standards
I daydream about living life like her
Having people love me like her
So goddamn effortlessly perfect for no reason
Whatever she does is amazing
Whatever I do goes unnoticed
So here in the darkness of her shadow I will spend my days trying to prove my worth