ELEGY Poem: MY MYSTERIOUS PILLAR, by Stacy Moki

You promised me, didn’t you?
You said you’ll always be there,
You said it’s always going to be the three of us,
You said to infinity you’ll never leave us,
Then why did you?

You looked so peaceful going under,
Didn’t notice how much this world made you suffer,
Yet you always gave us your smiles,
That made you seem to shine,
that made you you.

Is it selfish of me to think it too early?
I still have a lot left unfinished,
Didn’t get my last four embraces,
Didn’t let you see the look in their faces,
When I proved them wrong.

You left us with nothing,
Since you were our everything,
I held on to your every word,
But now they make me sad,
Don’t want to hold on anymore.

You were our home,
But now that you’re gone,
Where do we belong?
With those who only came,
Only when you took your last breath?

I can still remember,
Those nights ended with laughter,
Nights I was a daughter,
Nights he was a son,
Nights that can’t be real anymore.

He asked me why,
Why I only got your last wishes,
Yet I never saw him break,
He said he’ll never be alone,
Because you gave him part of your soul.

You gave me hope,
You made me believe,
So even though it hurts,
I’m going to let you go,
Because it hurts you more.

Now you’re cold,
Lifeless and alone,
But somehow,
You managed to find peace