ELEGY Poem: The Presence of My Maternal Grandmother, by Eliza Scudder

I
Want
To write
About my
Grandmother because
Her spirit follows me around.

She
Is
Like a
Shadow on
My right side and she
Has the presence of a green heart.

I
Crawled
Out of
My body
And saw a prism
In the middle of the ceiling.

It
Was
A green
Triangle
When Uranus first
Entered the astrological

Sign
Of
Taurus
In 2018.
It felt like things changed too quickly.

She
Was
Near me
All over
California and
It felt like I relived her life.

I
Think
Stan is
Stupid and
Told someone to mess
With my medication one time.

He
Changed
My meds
Once a week
And later on I
Heard voices telling me to kill

Jan
And
Roger
On a farm.
At the hospital
I almost died from too much blood

Drawn
Out
Too fast
And I blacked
Out and didn’t wake
And an alarm went off and then

The
Nurse
Freaked out,
The doctor
Ran into the room,
And they gave me an IV and

I
Puked
Water
All over
My body and shook
And shivered and passed out to sleep.