GRIEF Poem: Mother, by Frankie BAIGELOW

Mother,
I lost you.
But you’re still there.
But you’re not here or there.
I can’t talk to you
When we speak it’s so empty.
It feels empty.
I wanted to fix what is broken.
Everywhere I go, I feel empty.
When we converse, it’s worse.
One more day, one more talk.. One day
I will get so broken like you..I don’t want that
I chose silence because my honesty never changes your
Actions. You won’t sober up.
I know you will never be sober.
I know you feel pain, your pride is in the way
When will you get help to regain those who still love you.
Even when it hurts to love you
Will it hurt to just let go one day?
I don’t want to be you.
I don’t want to be him.
I don’t want my life to depend on the bottle.
I just want to be happy.
I’m drained.
I feel empty.
I feel hopeless
Insecure.
I don’t know you any more.
Mom is a distant warm memory, faded, dissolved
No substance. Just alcohol. Emptiness.
You will never understand or make changes for your daughters.
No matter what I say, I know it won’t change where your priorities are.
The truth is I am exahsted.
I ignore your calls.
You drain me.
You pain me.
I can’t keep doing this anymore.
I miss you.
I miss you
But you aren’t there anymore.
You are far gone.

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