LOVE Poem: Army of Darkness, by Darren Robinson

Army of darkness, they wander the realm to find me, Sniffing and snivelling versions of me, Distorted and angry and disfigured in ways a horror would be, they are s. Telling the cursed and sour air in the hopes to find me hiding in my hole, my safe space but I’m running our of time,

I’ve held them back many a time, many a year but the pressure increases with every second of the clock, I know once they find me I will be lost forever, they will force me to harm myself, to forget the ones I love or whoever, encourage me to end something I have spent years building upon.

I don’t want to feel empty and unloved, feared, scared or disgraced because I know I will be missed I have more than the this world has to offer, and the next and the next, it’s overwhelming feeling the pressure And the panic of being so close to edge it’s something I spend many a moments in dread.

As I’m interrupted I come round unphased and alert, I shake my head to alert my fizzing eyes to centre on the moment. I heard. “are you listening!? “

“sorry I was day dreaming “ to be honest I was day screaming so loud inside because my own fears are pushing me, they will find me and I don’t want to give this up I k ow I want it but my mind and body are against me, my wife and children depend on me to be the rock, the voice of reason, the key family figure to give it up would be cruel, dreadful
without a thought or reason, why would I? I’m happy they see my smile but on the inside I’m crying I’m screaming the monsters run wild I feel the urge to protect myself and the family but giving up would do nicely had I not thought of the guilt that is stowed upon me, how could I do that to the family who loves. Me, oh well on I have to battle, feeling
Lone, the hardship, the will to survive weakens but I have to push in for everyone that looks to me, it would be nice to sleep and not have to wake, here I go again onto another day, and the next and the next.