PERSON Poem: Eden, by Tara Bange

I bent over backwards at your demand.
You want nothing more than for me to be better than I am
And as weird as it sounds, to this day, I don’t question this extant.
Though, we both know no matter how much I change you want

Something different,
That’s what you want cuz I’m Different,
I can change what I want,
Won’t make a difference –
Cuz you don’t give a damn.

Even if you told me that we’re even
Could you tell me that it is Eden
That we can imbibe?
And will I be able to
Ask and bear your answer to
‘How am I
In your eyes?’

Take the piss out my clothes, my hair, my face.
I’d love to say that you love me
But even if you did it’s just in your way.
That’s not enough for me, okay?
Hung up on you? –
Who are you
For me to call, anyway?

Again, it’s
Something different,
That’s what you want cuz I’m Different,
I can change what I want,
Won’t make a difference –
Cuz you don’t give a damn.

Even if you told me that we’re even
Could you tell me that it is Eden
That we can imbibe?
And will I be able to
Ask and bear your answer to
‘How am I
In your eyes?’