ROMANCE Poem: Special to me, by Diya Nettikadan

You are special to me,
but not special in the way that you think,
I don’t believe you hung the moon and stars,
but when I look at you I will myself not to blink.

Because I don’t want to lose a single second,
of memorizing your features,
If I could stare at you forever it would not be enough,
and I’m not saying that because we are stupid teenagers.

But because you are special to me,
and not just special in your face,
though it feels like God spent extra time carving that,
just by existing you have become my safe space.

A place to be myself,
never have to pretend for even a second,
to be somebody I’m not,
and just for that, in my mind you are a legend.

Your voice soothes something in my soul,
that my mind could not ever comprehend,
my dreams are always filled with thoughts of us together,
even if for now it’s just pretend

You are special to me,
special in a different way,
the way that knows there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you,
and I hope you know I am here for you at any time of any day.

There is never an end to conversations with you,
and I don’t ever want that to change,
there’s never a time I don’t want to talk to you,
I could yap for hours you still wouldn’t think I’m strange.

No, you still look at me with that same look in your eyes,
the one that hasn’t changed from the start,
the look that says “some day I will marry you”,
the one I have memorized and lives rent-free in my heart.

You are so special to me,
more special than words could explain,
the kind of special that no matter how hard I tried,
I know I won’t ever find the same again.

But that doesn’t matter,
because I am not letting you go,
through thick and thin remember,
we pinky-promised and those are unbreakable you know.

Special is such a simple word,
but I can’t think of another,
because English has not yet come up with a word,
to describe how much more I feel for you than I do for any other.

So I’ll stick to calling you special,
and hope you know that you are much more than that.
You are so special to me,
that I would leave everything to be with you at the drop of a hat.

And that’s kind of terrifying,
but exciting all the same,
because I know you would do the exact same for me,
no matter what time that call came.

You are more than just special to me,
and I think you already know that,
but you should also know that you will always be special to me,
nothing and no one could ever change that fact.

-Diya Nettikadan 2024/07/28.