Lined up like dirty pearls
on an old necklace
are all the little things that wronged me
lined up behind each other
lined up next to each other
It’s a collection of unforgiveness
To forgive does not bring me peace
I would cry if I ever loose that old necklace
I need to wear it during happy hours
I need to look at it during sad nights
Not forgiving brings me peace
Plotting brings me peace
Being petty brings me peace
Destroying brings me peace
I’m sorry
but also
I am not