Me: They don’t teach you
That you might become two
When love happens
That you might love
But you will also want
Your lover out
Out of your life!
They did not tell you
How cruel it is to lose the lover
And to want love back
But away with the lover.
They did not teach us
How to fight with
Wanting the lover back
But also away, far away!
They did not and they will not.
I did hear songs about it,
Seen movies about it
Never understood it
Like I was watching
A modern painting that
The more I look at, the
More I understand less
Or just accept it as it is
But never paid attention to
And here I am fighting for
Whats left of my dignity
Life and soul! An emptiness.
The lover: always kisses
With his eyes wide open,
Silent in his moves
Strong on reactions
Wanting it all! Taking it all
Looking at his pray
Like its a last meal
Enjoying it all leaving
Nothing for a future love!
Always offering love
Like using his ultimate.
But loving at all.
Always sure that love
Is seen as pure.
Always being sure
The love is taken
Hugged with power…
Always messing arround with
And act or a decision
Never looking after own
Always planing in full
Step by step the moment
When you will think
Its your fault and you
Will forever think so!
Always keeping sticked to
The relationship until it knows
The job is done – suffering you will.
Knowing that no matter what
There is always a chance
For you to accept the misery
And the toxicity and the pain.
They: they don’t prevent us
Never keep us safe from
Always letting us fall
In the same trap – love!
Us: fighting for getting back
Knowing that is wrong
Never giving up
Always caring to each other
Forever wanting the feelings
The special, that dance
In the midle of the Universe.
That we will always know
That is wrong bur never
Fighting for what is right
To keep the love alive
In a healthy way! A powerful
Love! Strong! Never torn
A love entirely made of truth
And life! Kindness and affection
The one we only know
To give to each other.
That special hug! And kiss!
That special thought and care that says
“I am here and forever will”
That please accept it all
And put it in your heart
That forgiveness and blessing
Of preying at night for you
While you sleep. A sweet sleep
Or a hug in the summer
When it rains and full of noises
In the sky. That hug. That
Sincerity and clarity that makes
One accept it all, wanting all
That “I will keep you,
And will never get tired
To fight for you, to care for you”
That when you get upset
All comes back to light.
The light: we are both depressed
In need of help and crying
For that real help that power
To tell us “you are not alone”
And you will be alright.
That feeling of be safe
And truly protected
Of unwanted forces or
Unwanted suffering. Unwanted.
Anything to put us apart then…
We become our enemies without
Knowing that somewhere deep inside
A decision was made for us
And that we will keep in our hearts
What is wrong or bad about
The other. The lover, the hater
The lier and the one to wanting
All that is bad for us. Never to
Look at anything but what
Makes us suffer. What makes us
Cry or in pain or screaming
“what do you want from me?”
Untill the darkness comes along
Darkness: we are both alone
And we want to become friends
But also keep each other away
As far as possible and then the thought
“can it be possible? That love”
We did not know love. I did not.
Did you? Did you know
What you were playing with?
Did you know what you were doing?
Did you know I will always want you back?
Did you lie and used me? Did you?
Did you force yourself into me?
How could I accept something
I knew I will never accept.
How could you let me open?
How could you let me do it?
Why don’t you fight back for me now?
Why don’t you do what is right.
Its all out. Will always be.
I will pretend strong looking
Like I don t want you back.
All because of you. But I will
Accept it all. As I did. I will
Fight for you deep inside me
Pray for you. Care for you.
I will always always always
Always always love you!
I will. And I will take away
Anything else! And I will become
A man standing straight
Looking in people’s eyes
Keeping you in my heart
Somehow not taking you
Out of it! Never letting you out
To making sure no matter
What happens to you, no matter
What, you will constantly receive
Love. A source that will never end.
A source that will make me happy
As will make you happy
Without knowing where is it from
Where is the source…
The source: I now know
I will forever feel alone
As a love like that will never
Ever ever live inside me again
And that alone will keep me
A person that can walk
Can travel this Universe
As a free soul, changed
Into something that will no
See end. No see limit.
A way of understanding
And looking and trying
Learning. Accepting!
That can be sure! The purity
Will never die! It will stay there.
It will survive to tell the story
In the darkness, the light and purity
The purity…
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