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New mother,
does not want to receive
the blanket of a child deceased.

Removing the stone from my mouth—
calling forth Louisiana lessons
pink salt, copper, and clay
to seal that mouth and keep you
at bay.

Knocking, vibrations,
shearing forces that screech then
h o w l
ruining any attempt at sleep.

A threefold payment for marring
this blissful time, continuing that
suffocating push and shove to
take, take, take.

Can count blessings, make tallies, take tepid showers
and shake—
things have taken a turn.
I’m not suddenly difficult, just a well behaved
real witch.

My one true love is born of tremendous patience and wherewithal,
At first pleasantries are all I can dole out,

Shortly, my overtures with women are
Replaced by my desire for misadventures, more, and ecstasy with him, this former role out,

I’m on borrowed time with hetero-
Normative relationships with women,
This last one with Vanessa I really
Stole out,

I’ve talked authentically with only him, to give it a try,
Persuading and recapturing, I do
Everything short of a cajole out,

Forcing anything on him will cause him to backpedal away from “us,”
I have to stop short of pleading,
I must leave control out

If only I knew what you are saying,
Are you laughing or talking or singing or praying.
You greet me in the morning with a voice ever sweet,
You chirp and feed on worms, hidden below my feet.
Sometimes you leave, but you always come back,
You’re a vibrant range of colors; from red and blue to black.
With you, spring blooms, with you, seeds grow,
Your voice is a blessing, to all those below.

leaning coneflowers (a little phallic)
overgrow their jurisdictions
compete with jagged orangey penstemons
maiden grass. meek yellow columbines
sidestep through the mulch, brush with
something white in bunches that the bees like

but the asters i cannot describe
the bunnies munch them to stalk
i tell myself i don’t mind
but

My mom likes to say she gave me her tongue—
not the muscle
but the ability to move worlds with it.
She anointed me with her fury,
her impatience,
the power to gaze within your opponent
and pluck their greatest insecurity
from their chest.
She birthed me in her image,
a reflection she must avoid
lest she take the blame for my fire.
Something to claim if I use my power for good,
singing “That’s my daughter!”
to her friends when I win tournaments
in debate because all I seem to do is
refute, refute, refute.
But when I cut her with words
woven from her womb,
I am her greatest error.

My mom gifted me her tongue—
no, not as a gift,
but as an attempt to cleanse
herself, to pass illness
from host to donor, parent to child.
It didn’t work,
and I am the proof—
the fights we detonate with our words,
two soldiers dueling for the last breath.
I’ll come to her room after we argue,
the poison still on my lips.
We say “sorry,” “forgive me,”
but there’s no peace
between women like us.

When they ask which parent I mirror,
I claim my father’s face.
But in my disposition, I am my mother’s daughter;
the venom she could never purge,
the anger she never could swallow,
the echo of all her pain.
Everything she tries to bury,
I resurrect. Everything she despises,
I become. I am my mother’s daughter,
all her rage, all her upset,
and it hurts like hell

Once a night, the Boogeyman visits
kids who stay up, kids who are bad,
and kids who don’t believe. Under
the bed and inside your head,
the Boogeyman creeps around.
The Boogeyman lurks without
a sound. He hangs around. He
waits for the perfect moment
to become visible. He attacks
in the dead of the night when
the parents cut off the light.
During the day, the Boogeyman
takes the shape of a politician,
a teacher, a secretary, a mom,
a dad, a pastor, a police officer,
or a homeless man under
the bridge. The Boogeyman
returns to his true form after
he conforms. Beware of his
gaze. Don’t make eye contact
as it serves as an unwritten
contract. Have no fear. Don’t
be scared. All you need to be
is aware. Sleep tight tonight.
If something doesn’t feel right,
get up and turn on the light.

and one day you’re twenty
some things cease to align
with your teen-aged baby blue
prints of the tequila-hot veins
beneath your dermis – – an eye
you’ve got for goodbyes on
the pier and they’ll find
you here, mouth agape
and serving as a target
so the pigeon head seagulls
can, with purpose, shit
and get this, on that one
day, which is really many
a riptide may very well
bury you atop skipping
stones, sunken, forgotten
forgone would have been
the pocketbook, of course
the handkerchief, better yet
the polls and the talons, oh
and yes, they’ll shove wood
and iron and steps to follow
but you won’t seem to be able
to construct a house as hollow

It is so loud
When I listen to the trees.
They have much to say

Pine asks for my sadness
To transform it into courage and inspiration.
Cypress, the water tree,
offers rivers of qi for my kidneys
To give me strength and willpower.

There is nothing more perfect than this moment
The sun toys with the clouds my eyes its reflection on the lake

This lake, a puddle from an iceberg 15,000 years ago
A microcosm like the stone next to the butterfly weed
beneath the dawn redwood
Rescued from extinction from a long forgotten Harvard professor needing a gift for his Sinophile
client
A seed.

It’s okay
to take refuge.
Let your heart
guide you.

Beneath the arch
of ancient oaks
twirl
with shadows

to rustling greens
as the blue vault opens.
Wander your way
to you

The ice cream ordered in January,

At a counter, making me doubt my memory,

Because why would an ice cream stand be open in the winter?

We had been in the car for an hour, he had asked me if I wanted to drive around and look at houses in rich neighborhoods

I already knew this game from the town where the women dropped their dirty clothes at my grandmother’s house for her to

Wash, press, and fold.

I had a Kiwanis Club scholarship, only partially covering the tuition of a class where I watched my professor cry about the fact of her mother dying

And a deformed thought said, this is a cost, me sitting here watching your ordinary humanity, the wounding truth

After that, a nervousness took root, and I could only outpace it

Dancing on unfinished wood floors, long splinters underfoot, kindling, drowning

The story goes- my great aunt was standing on table, unsteady for sloshing reason, hanging curtains

And she fell, never the same again

How’s that for hereditary?

Dying for adornment’s sake.