I carry with me
A package of tortillas
Made from the hands of my aunt
Those traditional loving
Flat pieces of flour
Which cover my soul
With the most delicious scent
I put on top of it
My sorrow of loss
My mother’s kisses before
Going to school
And the last hug I gave her
On her departing sleep
I can’t forget the guacamole
Inside what will be
my most delicious taco
And the idea
That being Mexican
Is eating tacos
Because there is no other way
Either taco, mariachi, sombrero
Poncho, margarita, and Cancun
These elements define me
They flavor my tortilla
With the ideas from outside
But what Mexico really means to me
Is the smell of the wet soil
In a misty morning in Cuetzálan
Walking in the paving stones without even seeing my legs
The eyes of the jaguar in the jungle
Yellow as the dawn in Oaxaca.
Canela and piloncillo
In my morning coffee
What it truly means to hold
Someone for more than five minutes
The essence and spice of hearing te amo
And the candles
That light up our hearts
Inside the cemetery
Where we left our hearts
Where we lost our souls
Where we believe still
That we will re-duplicate
That embrace
I take a bite of my tortilla
And see her eyes
I hear her voice
And the sound is so sweet
Like honey dripping
Down my spine
How I miss you my land
How I miss you my womb
And the butterflies
Who follow my walks of the world
Hand in hand
With cacao and water.
By Tessie Herrasti