I am that black boy tamed away
like a slapdash pellet fired into a space
without behest. I cleaved with everything
I see. I, too, must survive in this race.
I have many razors in my body already;
My father, who was killed by his own car
like a cacoon seed hearsed under the ground.
My mother turned grief to a wrapper—swathed
around her torso. Each time we pray, grief
hunt on us till it stole my mother’s soul, too.
I wonder the kind of mutualistic affairs we
shared. I still want to believe, “blood is thicker
than water.” But everything in my own family—
love, ecstasy & bloodline—are watery. They
dissolve in hasty into the air.
I was wallowed like a tattered cloth.
I am here again, to make this redemption
an ink and wet my grief with poetry.