—for my brother, Gary
A hundred-twenty pounds on a home-hospital bed
a catheter filled with urine
a bag of liquid shit
one bereft fifteen-year-old daughter
another daughter, twenty-one, grieving but okay
an infant granddaughter
a divorced, crazy woman, once your wife
a cup of stale water on a makeshift nightstand
a mother who will always see you as a promising boy
a sister—me—to whom you refused to speak
five pills on a paper napkin,
fourteen-hundred dollars stashed in a dictionary
the metallic smell of your liver cancer
two gambling debts to the Miami mafia,
your half smile before letting go
your bones turned to ash,
the smell of you and then
nothing.