LOVE Poem: I miss…, by Valeria Moreno

Would it be safe enough to say I miss you?
Even tho you’re gone, I still feel as if you
We’re still here with me, But even tho you’re gone

I still can’t picture life without you, and what I mean
By that, is that every time someone asks me how many cousins
I have, I always say five instead of four, or when my
Parents tell me we’re going to your house

I always picture you at the door with the warmest smile
And your arms are wide open for a hug, just waiting for us to arrive
But… it’s all an illusion that I make for myself
But the problem is that… it hurts me more
To pretend that you’re still here, then to just accept the fact that
your gone

I know I’m being repetitive, but what else can I say?
That I’m sad that you left me all alone?
Or maybe that I’m mad that I can’t erase your face from all the family photos
I’m mad because the doctors couldn’t do anything to help you
Or maybe that I’m angry because you didn’t tell me?
Or that I’m angry because you thought
It was no big deal

But no, I’m not angry…I’m hurt.
I’m hurt at the fact that it makes me angry
Because it wasn’t your fault..

It just happened, and everything happens
For a reason, right?
And its always gonna be an if never a when or you will
Like if you had lived, you would have become
The most famous comic creator, as you would put it
Or if you had lived, you would have been there on my
Special day when I turned fifteen with your fancy suit that you had bought
Months before you died, we would have danced and laughed together
As I always imagined

But no..instead I was stuck with looking at the entrance
Waiting for something that was never going to come
I was stuck at the front door of your house, waiting for the
Embrace that was never going to happen
I was stuck…waiting at your room door..waiting for you…
But in reality, I was waiting for nothing
I would just stand outside your room, looking at the white door

waiting…

But its been years since your passing
And I’m still outside that white door
Just waiting for you…

Because even tho its been years
I still cant go past and let it go
So ill keep waiting
And ill keep writing about you
Because I miss…
you

– Valeria Moreno