Read Poem: Egypt’s Shifting Sands by Helen Whitten

I’ve stood in Tahrir Square,
felt the dusty heat,
done deals on street corners
with scruffy boys
adept at currency arithmetic,
seen the Pyramids at sunset
after the inevitable visit to a papyrus shop,

taken a horse
into the desolate desert at dusk,
just me and a stranger,
hoof meeting sand at speed,
watched a solitary camel rider leering up
like a mirage from the tombs,
grabbing at my reins,
his smile lecherous as a snake.
The Sphinx watched it all.

And Tahrir Square that spring
was full of banners,
no Pharoah there,
no Rameses nor Akhenaton,
just families gathering,
and a herd of colts
kicking their heels,
booting out the old folk.

Danton and Havel
on ghostly watch
as a velvet wave upturns
the status quo along
the banks of the glittering Nile,
centuries of despotic old men’s decrees
unravelling like papyrus
from Tunisia to Syria.

Today, parched bones of camels
lie in dust hollows,
beside the looters’ tunnels,
where antiquities feed
a desperate generation
in the land where
few tourists go.
Horses stand in starving heat.
Young boys despair
of providing sustenance
for ailing parents or sisters,
as tombs are raided
and dynamited
below his feet.

Money changes hands
in the brotherhood of power,
A journalist risks her life
to tell the story,
as the cabal watch
and shoot at her car
to silence her.

What scrolls will be written
in the blood-red desert
of history’s graveyard
alongside the Pharoahs’ beasts
and treasures?
The Sphinx watches and waits.

Read Poem: FAT IS NOT WHO I AM by L. Gresty

I know that you see me, you cannot help that
My backsides much bigger,
Than your massive hat…
You think ‘cause I’m over, the mass of my grocer
I must be a horrible bitch.
A hunny that’s heavy, with legs just like jelly
Must really sweat, stink and itch.
Yet if you look closer, or listen to me
And value my words more than figure
You may find a friend, someone to help mend
And with kindness,
Stop me getting bigger.
I don’t smell or itch, and I’m not such a bitch
Which you’d realise if you gave a damn…
So talk to me nicely
And in future think twicely,
Because ‘fat’ is not WHO I am!

Read Poem: U’re pretty by Lamar Johnson

You are beautiful.
Models and concubines bow their heads where you walk,
Flowers wilt, and die, knowing and recognizing their ugliness.
The Seas part – they are not worthy of touching you.
The Clouds encompass the sky, smothering all in grey
but leaving a hole, an aperture of the Sun open
only to follow you around;
Just like a spotlight.
Men and Women alike kill themselves for you
understanding that there is no sight to be found greater afterwards;
No wedding, no childbirth, no love
is capable of comparing.
Children cry, scream, and shit themselves;
They regret not being born to you
and curse their inferior genetics.
The Moon no longer reflects the Sun
and instead reflects your image
a thousand times as bright.
Trees turn into paper
words spontaneously appearing
all written in your name;
A thousand times a thousand chants
that the Air reads and sings.
The Fish have moved to the abyssal zone
for they too, know they are ugly
and bemoan the Light for showing it.
Your hair is finer than the finest silk
they are not even comparable.
Your skin is softer than the softest down
and the Birds have all shed their feathers
in the vainglorious hope that you will rest on them;
A gift they do not deserve
and so you do not give it.
The Earth recognizes it’s ugliness
so you float a foot above
the ground unworthy of your bare foot.
Frost coats the tips of your hair;
Fire burns on your bare chest –
The Elements are infatuated
but know you are out of reach.

Gods of all Religions offered you their seat;
You knew ugly worshippers would have ugly prayers,
and declined the Presidents for the same reason
(but you’ve been elected Lord in all lands
and God of the Free World).

Poets, Artists, and all Creators alike go blind,
go mad, comprehending nothing, seeing nothing
capable of matching you.
You have enslaved our minds.
You are Beautiful.

Read Poem: Laughter on the Outside by John Collings

I have forgot what it means to be dry
Because I have lived in this rain too long.
I hope my personal weather will sigh,
Allowing the time with the sun the time to be strong.
Until then I will sit under this cloud
With my drenched clothes clinging to my body.
A fool in the rain can never be proud,
Punishment for never being naughty.
I will continue to wear my smile
‘Cause others depend on the attitude.
Dripping laughter will become my style,
Never expecting any platitude.
Will any ever understand my pain,
Just a wet man, standing in his own rain?

Read Poem: A Stomach Filled With Poison by Matt Nagin

1

Always I return to the emptiness, the lack of vigor, and the arrow
in the safari smile; always I am once more among the hunters
and magic spears, cyclops wardens, anvils in the ravine;
always with the suns smashed into the curtains of night
and whirlwind promises sold like bottles of loneliness
in the filthy streets; twisting inside, eradicating a cavernous
bliss, attacking where strength is most required…

2

Rainbow days cascade into wounds that can never quite heal
and presumptive questions for the limerick nights that are
torn asunder with the blinding pain like bandits tortured in
jails of soft demise until they admit defeat—but they won’t—
cannot really—for the fight is all—and to go on is to dream
today—to maintain enough resolve to lift yourself out the
swirling sea, the quicksand of hardship, the limitations
of mind and soul, the spiritual and emotive sacrifices before
the jaguars; to build yourself up and find a way to laugh at all
the madness; the way you are consumed by the jewels of
vitality within; a stomach filled with poison, but still to go on;
to, strangely, persevere.

3

A pound of poison, a ton, a brigade; poison by the barrel; poison in
your dreams; poison when you awaken and make love; all is spoiled;
rotten; the apple decaying on such a narrow vine; the spirit crushed;
energy waning; your friends take off on wings of majesty towards
such lofty shores and you in the bathroom just trying to make it
through another day; the pain dropping you to your feet, clipping
you where most powerful; the pain sinking you right in the gut;
poison where the night shakes and the moon holds your hand; and at
the family dinner and the job interview and the meet and greet with
the devil; it wraps itself around you like ivy like a sheet of ice
like a prayer group for a sinner—poison in your belly and nowhere
to evade the onslaught or even blunt what it does to you for a second.

4

Poison yet again like a curtain of topaz, like a sun shower, like a deliverance
from superficiality; to lie on the couch holding your gut wishing for an end
is to be redeemed; to suffer in silence while others go on in glass houses
catering to every unimaginable whim, pleasure-junkies, hooked on the
idiocies of desire—is to rise above; to be eagle spirit, with wings that knife
through existential boundaries making you closer to Earth even as you
seemingly float away; to make you predator and prey; this poison gift, this
abracadabra wish, this death-plunge made of sugary dreams—this is your
salvation; this is what can carry you off; this is how you can rise above
your suffering and taste the pearls of a dawn crooked and endearing
before it even happens; this is how you are redeemed.

5

In the end, when the waves of pain surge, your head spins and you run
to the porcelain friend again and again—a warrior for the dark spaces,
a perennial exorcist of the evil within, a sorcerer dying from a spell he
cannot understand—in the end it is all a runway for you; the planes can
still kiss a genial, aberrant sky; the night is still waiting; decades pass
and still you can return to yourself; have these brief moments, these
flashes of bliss; evolve beyond the curse; the poison in a lockbox for
an hour, or a day, or a week: it is enough. Must suffice. A stomach
filled with poison, but still a pacifist in an unseen war that most days—
in spite of yourself—you can go out and win.

 

Bio

Matt Nagin’s poetry has been published in Antigonish Review, Dash Literary Journal, The Charles Carter, Grain Magazine and Arsenic Lobster. In 2018, his poem ‘If We Are Doomed,’ won the Spirit First Editor’s Choice Award. His first poetry collection, “Butterflies Lost Within The Crooked Moonlight,” was released in 2017, and has obtained very strong reviews. More info at mattnagin.com

 

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Read Poem: HOW SHE MOVES ME by Terry Smith

I tried to explain my feelings
but how do you explain a sunrise
to a blind man
or the call of a whip-poor-will
to someone who’s ears
refuse sound
that when I hold you
I feel as if I have regained
something I had lost
long ago
that one smile from you
washes away even the worst of days
your every breath
is like music
& your very existence in my life
is nothing short of a miracle

Read Poem by Noel Hartem

The house is silent with dread

No one speaks but your screams are heard

I see your soul I know your soul

Blackness has colored your burnt edges

A light born bright refused to glow

Who threw the first stone to open such a wound

No elixir can cure the lesions you pick and protect

Neap tides have eroded your empty hearts wall

Tracing scars beneath thin skin with a smile

Disdain oozes at compassion and kindness

The corner of your eyes display your beloved hate

Tears of others used as a whetstone tool

Sharpened tongue precisely placed

As you looked away I deadlocked the door

The house is silent…….I said no more

Noel Hartem
http://www.noelliesplace.com

Read Poem: CONFLICTED BY NIKI BELL

I took the road less traveled by and sang my song…
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
Crescendos in the trees
They would call out my name
Protecting me
Gasping for air
In total shock
Unbelievable to the naked eye
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
I tapped into my crown
And tried to go within
Once again…
It wasn’t working
Please, “Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
I screamed in my head
This high pitched whining
The song haunted me
I could not fall asleep
Over thirty years of nightmares
Life NOT passing me by
Oh no, Oh no!
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
Crescendos bellowing in the wind
Sounds like murder
They said.
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
Even though the river stands tall
Mighty and strong
I will drown in it
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
Please, take me home
As I try to let go,
Nothing seems to go my way
As I clear out my voice,
my heart, my aching pains,
More just flood my memories,
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
I struggle to go within
Relax, it is okay
Nothing will console me
Oh, I can not breathe
As they enter my bedroom
And tell me…
All of them
STOP.
All the men
Past, and present.
All the men from a hopeless future.
Say to me, ‘STOP”.
My inner voice need no validation
Always thinking for herself.
From within comes this message,
Stop torturing yourself
You cannot come back
To destiny lost
You cannot come back to healed pain
You must move on
Let the rain be your sun
The moon stand on tiptoe
As you walk in light
Ask yourself for forgiveness
Live for today
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”

I was born into a world of sexual violence
We coin it as sexual trafficking these days
The trauma in which I have had to overcome
In this lifetime
There is no rhyme or reason for such sanity (no that is not a typo)
My saving grace is knowing that I have, with my story,
Helped another… woman… another child…
To be free and begin their journey
As I walk through the valley of death
I am acutely aware of my own re-victimization of myself
I am fond of my survival skills
I seek no praise
I stopped hazing myself with fire, with hate
I began to scream a new kind of love
I shed a new shell
I take my power back every moment of the day
Regardless of poverty
Loneliness, or a lack of
I stand alone
A warrior of my own
A savior of my own story
A goddess of life, Diosa de Vida
A woman deserving
A human being bleeding
“Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
Goes back to that hole,
To that time
And there is no reason or rhyme
For such sanity.
Therefore, I will not go.
As I walk through the valley of death
I demand to be free
“Let Freedom Ring”
“Let Freedom Ring”
You will not “Take Me Home, Take Me Home”
I have never been whole
Only…

CONFLICTED.
Copyright © 2018 Niki Bell

Read Poem: Grandma and Alzheimer’s by Missy Sue Singhaus

Alzheimer’s is not a pretty site,

It has no age that it affects

It can affect the young and old.

It takes a caring old lady into someone you don’t know.

As time passes things get worse and the sweet old lady is no longer there.

She is gone, she is someone you don’t know, and no longer is caring

But a stranger, empty soul, empty eyes looking at you

No longer can communicate their needs

Back to childhood without a voice

Their needs are strange and hard to understand

As time goes on they forget to how to walk,

Their communication is gone,

They cry in frustration

They cry out in pain

They know they are a stranger

And that you’re a stranger to them

Things can never be the same

Things have changed

Looking into her eyes now they look at peace

The pain, sorrow and the fight has end

They join loved ones before

You are left to wonder

When can I see them again

The whole them, not a stranger

The person you knew

The one you call a second Mommy

The one that stood there and stood for you

No more an empty soul but the woman you once knew

A younger version of the old lady you once knew

A younger you that your grandma once knew

Someday both of us back together again

We have made ourselves whole once again.

Two souls young again

No more troubles of this World

But eternity to spend together

No more Alzheimer’s and no more pain

Those that were are put to rest

A New beginning for eternity

Dedicated to my grandma Alberta Delbert

Read Poem: In Time by Alex Clay

Thy lonely voice and somber tone
Of melancholy words ‘ere spoken
To linger here and left alone
Amongst dreams thy thoughts have broken
Whilst sitting still enduring all
The fathoms of thine emptiness
Mine own demise in time befall
My mourning without recompense
Thy earthly form to sever thee
From this final mortal coil
To dance afar and wander free
Left behind this lonely toil
Many a year shall pass my time
And giveth small reminder
The longest mountain I must climb
To light thy flame much brighter
Thou art asleep to wake not soon
By thine own hands’ destruction
Yet still in death as bright as moon
The mortician’s reproduction
Embalmed in flame I set abroad
Thine ashes tossed asunder
A chosen place the esplanade
The birth of nature’s wonder
Now rest my love and wander not
The shoreline still with water
Rest in peace and not forgot
Mother, wife, and daughter.

Dedicated to Kaitlyn Marie
1993-2016