I waited patiently for the world to follow
And comprehend what I had just said
I gave myself the same courtesy
Maybe two to process their meaning
They weren’t anything special
The words that left my mouth
But something felt right
An acknowledgment that maybe
just maybe I was meant to say them
They were meant to be heard
I waited silently for the world to follow
To stop spinning for a second
For just one moment
As I let the words leave my lips
Free my tongue of their grasp
Their power which clung to my thoughts
Through sleep– no sleep
What is sleep when these words are present?
In my thoughts
And menial tasks so often required
To sustain life in this world
To feign sanity
Wrought by a wavering focus
They were nothing to be remembered
Anything but important
To the outside observer
To a distant onlooker
But perhaps that’s why I remembered
The way they felt as I spoke
Why I recited the time
The date of which I said them
Over and over
And over again
In my head
The breath that came before and after
I opened my mouth
The pause between each word
To ensure perfect deliverance
Perhaps that’s why they’ve stuck with me all these months
All these years
They were honest
The last words I said to you
Genre: Dark, scary, empowering, unknown, mystery, life
Turning and twisting out of reach
My dreams turn dark my fears unleashed
As I slowly drown in darkness I feel it’s icy touch I squirm trying to stay out of its evil clutches but it’s just not enough
The light of day continues to fade far from my reach
My heart beats fast as at last I finally see this living beast for what it truly is
I embrace it’s tendrils empowered and unafraid my fear fades far away as I dive into the darkness I now find comforting
Genre: Life, living life, living, hopeful, joy, happy, sad, perspective
Symbols and notes I see, I see signs of what’s to be. I’ve seen hearts, wings and babies. I don’t understand them as they appear more so daily. These days go by so quick, I want to enjoy every moment as they come and go by. In my sights of life see more intolerance this is why I want to enjoy this life. These symbols could be more than just a sign, it could very well be what I’ve been missing in my life. True friendships have found me happy and sometimes it makes me cry that’s my life. So why do I wonder what these signs are about. I question it sometimes. Life is a question mark , the answers will come in time. I still have plenty of life to live to make it right. After all this is my life.
I smile through my hardships and pray through my pain It’s hard seeing the sunshine when your heart is full of rain I laugh through the turmoil and seek refuge through the anguish I can’t feel happy when everything in my life is damaged.
My smile hides so much that I bury within but you will never see my tears I will never give in My laughter masks a hurt that’s buried deep inside I will never unleash the pain I’m too scared to cry.
I carry the load of so much that it weighs heavy on me I don’t have a true partner someone who is there for me Sometimes being strong can be such a heavy burden to bear There are times when I need someone to be there.
I want rid myself of all of these sorrowful thoughts that are in my mind I just want a break to be happy for some time It’s been so long since my soul has smiled I just want a little peace at least for a while.
His love for his city and his awareness of its effects on his psycho-social development led him to starting his own blog: rajnishmishravns.wordpress.com in 2011. The blog features both his academic writing and his writing on his city: the City of Light, Varanasi. Then, as he is a poet, and loves reading and talking about other people’s poems too, he started another blog: https://poetrypoeticspleasure.wordpress.com/. He runs an ezine: PPP Ezine to promote poetry and poets.